This email was started a few weeks ago and I had been debating whether or not my blog would be an appropriate venue for this. After much internal deliberation and now with my latest news, I decided to just go with it.
To say the past month was eventful would be an understatement. I've been wanting to write about our holiday celebrations and share with you the joy these special experiences brought into our hearts. But apparently the universe demands balance and there always seems to be something to help remind us of this. Damned universe.
It's been quite a month weather-wise too, our temperatures have been record breaking in both directions from 68 degrees one week to below zero the next. Well I really got the "macdaddy smackdown" this week. . I am most grateful to you my friends for bearing with me as I express myself here.
To say the past month was eventful would be an understatement. I've been wanting to write about our holiday celebrations and share with you the joy these special experiences brought into our hearts. But apparently the universe demands balance and there always seems to be something to help remind us of this. Damned universe.
It's been quite a month weather-wise too, our temperatures have been record breaking in both directions from 68 degrees one week to below zero the next. Well I really got the "macdaddy smackdown" this week. . I am most grateful to you my friends for bearing with me as I express myself here.
In Memoriam
Born on St. Patrick's Day he was a beautiful child, a bright young man, a jitterbug king from the 1950’s I’ve heard. A huge sports fan, he could have made his living commentating on the radio. My husband’s older brother, whom I’ve known and loved for over 40 years, passed away on January 17.
As I reflect upon this loss I am reminded of the reality that our outer “shell”, existing only to harbor the real person we are, was never intended to last forever. Vulnerable to a variety of maladies and conditions it eventually ceases to go on; yielding to the circumstances and terms of a life lived. Still it’s hard, we think in terms of living, believing our body will continue to serve us faithfully as we do our work, perhaps touch and love others, or as we give our all in whatever form we choose, it remains, we have a finite time in this physical world of ours. A fleeting moment to achieve, experience and leave our mark. I know there’s more in store for all of us once the physical is gone; but still I mourn and miss him. I am sad and feel the loss. I am sorry for my husband’s grief and concerned how losing Patrick will affect the rest of his family. I’m filled with faith that we will meet again. RIP ol’ card partner.
And then...
You may recall meeting my kitty in a previous posting or if you scroll down the page you will find the slide show of my beloved pet Teddy aka the Bear. I wanted to let you know that the Bear died unexpectedly in my home on Monday. I don't really know what happened, he was only 13 and seemed to be in the peak of health. I am beyond heart broken and am having trouble keeping this sad event in perspective just now. He came into my life to be doted upon, indulged, pampered and dare I say loved because it felt like love; but it is so very clear to me that Teddy was here primarily to bond with my heart and it's this loss I feel the most. It's hard to believe and accept the finality of all of this. Damned universe - can't live with it can't live without it.
I'm staying at my daughter's house since my husband is away but I hope to get back home to my normal day to day activities soon (weather permitting -remember my driveway?). So far nothing seems very natural to me right now and my desire to create is no where to be found, but I am optimistic that the sun will once again shine and I'll be back on my stitching throne and feeling contented. For those of you that have been there and understand, thank you kindly for your empathy; for those of you that don't, it's okay, I don't fully understand this myself. For all, please know I'll keep you close until next time.
Sincerely thanking you for making it down this far, you are a friend ever faithful. Madonna
Sincerely thanking you for making it down this far, you are a friend ever faithful. Madonna
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I'm sure I won't be the only one to be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for these losses. Your expectation for getting back to stitching is a positive thing. This is a time for watching for special small gifts from the universe, perhaps a bird on the wing, a lovely sunset, the smell of baking bread. Be kind to yourself.
ReplyDeleteNancy
I am so so sorry for all of your losses. I know your memories of your brother in law will help you as you mourn and start to live without him. I know your loss of Bear is devastating. We lost our beloved 15 year old dog on January 3rd so I understand your pain. The house seems like someone else's home without her. Give yourself time to mourn both of your losses. We will be here when you are ready to come back.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry.........death of a loved one is so terribly sad. The death of a beloved pet somehow is heart wrenching. I don't know why this is. But the loss of a four footed friend is the hardest to bear sometimes.
ReplyDeleteI have found that to honor the memory of my dear friend is to adopt one that is on 'death row' and say 'this one's for you'
Maybe this will work for you
Andrea
Fond memories help us move forward....may you have many to warm your soul.
ReplyDeleteWishing you serenity amid the turmoil that accompanies losses...
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your losses, only you can understand the depth of your pain although most of us has been through it one way or the other. I lost a cat under the same circumstances, he was only 8, and it really hurts not knowing what happened although my vet told me that it happens sometimes and it may be due to a clot. You and your famiy are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteMadonna, I'm so sorry about this. Nothing is worse than losing someone you love, whether it is an animal companion, a relative or a friend.
ReplyDeleteFeb. 7th, our Madeline would have been 16 years old. It still is very painful, but I have wonderful memories to fill my heart, and for that I'm very grateful. I try to focus on that and not on the loss - it's almost 3 years now. I also empathize with losing a beloved cat - My cat Henry was such a comfort to hold.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry for both your losses. Will be keeping you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteSandy of obsessedstitcher.blogspot.com
I am so sorry for your losses! Prayers and good thoughts are with you!
ReplyDeleteLady Madonna, so sorry for your losses. We all love you.
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